I'm not happy tonight. I saw something offensive, cruel and stupid on the news that made me SO mad...I immediately complained to the offender online. Then I had a problem I needed to get off my chest that had been bothering me for a while and the person I turned to wasn't very supportive, basically saying 'Good luck with that' which made me just burst into tears and wonder if I can count on anyone at all. And you know what I did? Apologized to that person for bothering them.

I think because people normally count on me to be the strong one, the funny one, the independent one - when I need help - desperately need help - people freak out and don't know what to do or say to me. It's so frustrating...to have every single time I feel need to express myself honestly become an awkward situation.

All I want to do is write. I want to write letters, I want to write my movie script, I want to post in my forums, and I want to write coherent blog posts and aren't emotional rants like this!!!